things i will not do (right now)

i will not look
i will not listen
i will not cry

i will not think
i will not live
i will not die

(i am ashamed of the
green green tears &
green green blood
i’ll spill of mine)

tonight i confess

tonight i confess
my secret sins
let a cat two cats three cats – more -
out of a bag bursting at
   the seams

tonight i confess
my secret sins
the burden of which weighs me down
the web of which holds me back
   stays me

tonight i confess
my secret sins
under the open night sky
under a drizzle of absolving raindrops
gently gently falling on
   my hair

tonight i confess
my secret sins
at long last
tonight i confess
unloading the burden
unraveling the web
hoping to move on

tonight i confess
my secret sins
at long last
tonight i confess
letting free my skeletons
letting wash my soul
hoping to move on

hoping
to move

tonight i confess
my secret sins
at long last
tonight i confess

feeling no better
feeling no lighter
feeling no release

but tonight i confess